Lessons Learned

one more year. I guess it's been mostly good..

quite a fitting day i guess to represent the whole year.

I had quite a few breaks today. Legprof was short, Crim did not meet despite my getting stuck in Balara for 30 mins and being very late for class, I got a cake from my blockies, I had breakfast with my blockies, I hung around what hopefully will be my future office, I was able to spend some time with my family, I was acknowledged for my work for later's concert, so many people greeted me...

but it came at a price. I pride myself for doing so many things and being passionate about music. This was supposed to be my chance, yes ulterior motive galore... but after I fucked up rehearsal tonight, my solo was cut. I knew i had to study the piece. i knew I could do it, but I had to study it. I know I'm not that gifted with music and it's been brute force on my part to get to where I am now... long story short, I knew i had to do something, it slipped, and there goes something I've always wanted to do. should have, would have could have... if law school taught me anything, it's that when times like this come up, shout it out, get it out of your system, pull your head up and move on. Right now, my only regret is that a beatiful song got cut from tomorrow's program coz a) i got greedy and thought I could pull it off and/or b) I didnt invest enough time in learning the piece. I'm very sorry this happened.

I guss all I can do now is learn from, it, and move on.. a little older, a little wiser.