so what now

it hurts not to be able to go to something I love because of issues.

I honestly felt I've been dealt a bad hand, but I'm old enough to know that life isn't always fair.

I don't know anymore if I still want to go back. well, obviously I do, but I know it can never be the same again, and over something I believe they hav absolutely no right to get mad at me over, but then it's me, and it is easy to get mad at me.

if they don't want me around, I won't force myself upon them.

sad, especially since we're SUPPOSED TO BE friends in the lord.

o well.

I'm just taking what I have and making do with it.

edit-
my mistake. now I can see that things will work out, all in due time.