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I've been meaning to write for quite some time now regarding quite a number of things.. oh well..
Looking back.. i've been on a slump since the day after Christmas. I remember the day after, having to play at a wedding.. I have no idea how i was able to get through that.. It got so bad that there was a UP mass that we played a song that was supposed to leave guitar at rhythm. I was so lost that I asked Mike to play it coz I really didn't feel up to it.. somehow, chords just don't make sense, my timing has been more off than usual, at some instances, I can barely even see the chord book. I guess only experience got me through (barely).
Then a great man died. Fr. Eduardo P. Hontiveros, SJ last 15 January. I didn't know him personally, though we were introduced once. Here, my group was asked to play for one of his wake and his funeral mass. I remember feeling some unworthiness, but as any good soldier, you take the orders, and obey without question. The pieces for the mass were, well in some degree of disorder, and it took a great effort from my group to get everything ready. I think we were able to do his songs some justice.. but on a more personal note, i felt myself snap out of the rut.
I remember talking to Jolo about this during the January batch, and how it was getting to me already.. and he said something like it only takes one instance to snap it all back together, hopefully, tuloy-tuloy na yan.
Right now, I guess I'm better than i was then. at least i can play decently.. nowhere near tip top shape, but getting there. I only have a few months to get my fingers there..
which leads me to a related but different point..
Recently, I've felt tired. I mean, I do love a lot of what I do, heck, I wouldn't be doing a lot of what I do for free if I don't.. But it's taken it's toll on me. Now I crave for some time to myself.. but can't coz I have to take care of certain things. (this statement does not necessarily pertain to just one thing). maybe I just need a few days of total vacation. then again, there's stuff to do.. nothing else to do but move on and get things done..
Looking back.. i've been on a slump since the day after Christmas. I remember the day after, having to play at a wedding.. I have no idea how i was able to get through that.. It got so bad that there was a UP mass that we played a song that was supposed to leave guitar at rhythm. I was so lost that I asked Mike to play it coz I really didn't feel up to it.. somehow, chords just don't make sense, my timing has been more off than usual, at some instances, I can barely even see the chord book. I guess only experience got me through (barely).
Then a great man died. Fr. Eduardo P. Hontiveros, SJ last 15 January. I didn't know him personally, though we were introduced once. Here, my group was asked to play for one of his wake and his funeral mass. I remember feeling some unworthiness, but as any good soldier, you take the orders, and obey without question. The pieces for the mass were, well in some degree of disorder, and it took a great effort from my group to get everything ready. I think we were able to do his songs some justice.. but on a more personal note, i felt myself snap out of the rut.
I remember talking to Jolo about this during the January batch, and how it was getting to me already.. and he said something like it only takes one instance to snap it all back together, hopefully, tuloy-tuloy na yan.
Right now, I guess I'm better than i was then. at least i can play decently.. nowhere near tip top shape, but getting there. I only have a few months to get my fingers there..
which leads me to a related but different point..
Recently, I've felt tired. I mean, I do love a lot of what I do, heck, I wouldn't be doing a lot of what I do for free if I don't.. But it's taken it's toll on me. Now I crave for some time to myself.. but can't coz I have to take care of certain things. (this statement does not necessarily pertain to just one thing). maybe I just need a few days of total vacation. then again, there's stuff to do.. nothing else to do but move on and get things done..
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