Afraid

for once, I'm afraid.

I've been through this way too many times.

This time however, I'm mush afraid. I don't even remember if I've been this afraid before...

I guess it comes with what happened last time, where I was the happiest I've ever been and I still managed to screw everything up (not that I didn't have any help, but.. basta.).

I'm afraid that you'll get alot of crap in a couple of hours, I'm afraid that things will take a turn for the worse, I'm afraid that this might not work out for whatever reason, I can go on and on about this... basta, yun.

I guess you could also see it as having gone through so much already, I'd like to think I've learned a thing or two (I'm sure alot of people would disagree with me on this one though).

If I've leared one thing, it's that some things are not really in your control. you can do so much, but in the end, you just have to let faith take stride.

*inhale...

*exhale...

*relax...

now...

"Dreams mean work."

but like the race, there are flags waving already, it would be best to drive with utmost care and responsiblity.

please?