Of mind and body
(written at jmm yesterday afternoon)
By the time we stopped work on the book last friday, i was mentally and emotionally drained. way too much work to do over the weekend, but i committed to go to lago de oro, so off to calatagan for a weekend of wakeboarding and work wheneer I can sneak it in.
As we were driving home last night, i received an sms, asking where I was. Long story short, another cramming night to finish this project. Now, my mind was in better shape, but obviously the weekend took its toll. My body still hurts, and I know I need to rest. Not much luck though. final revisions on this project, portia ball this weekend and concert practices coming up. I'm really not healthy at the moment. I fear, sometimes hope, that my body suddenly just shuts down as I'm driving on the way home.. but anyway, there.
exhausted, but not enough rest in sight. My mind, heart and body are all screaming for me to lie down, take a break for a few days with no worries, my phone off, just relax and getaway. Then again, life is running by, and I've already fallen off way too many times.
So here we go again, I know I'm better than this, in most aspects.
Focus. right?
I could sure use some moral support, instead of the constant nagging and pressure i get from my mom. then again, I work best when my back's against the wall (or should I say I only get things done when my back is against the wall).
I miss alot of people and places right now. I miss my ex who despite all my crap was always there by my side. I miss my blockmates from law, I miss my friends from philo, I miss the girls (must be just me, but something just feels different right now), I miss (nevermind let's not even go there.).. I can go on and on, but I'll stop here.
yeah, it's a pretty empty feeling right now, worse that i physically feel like crap. not much to keep my head up for. Then again, it's times like these tat make the good times even sweeter.
inhale.
relax.
put on some jazz.
calm blue ocean.
haha, good vibrations on the mp3 player.
definitely need some good vibes right now.
By the time we stopped work on the book last friday, i was mentally and emotionally drained. way too much work to do over the weekend, but i committed to go to lago de oro, so off to calatagan for a weekend of wakeboarding and work wheneer I can sneak it in.
As we were driving home last night, i received an sms, asking where I was. Long story short, another cramming night to finish this project. Now, my mind was in better shape, but obviously the weekend took its toll. My body still hurts, and I know I need to rest. Not much luck though. final revisions on this project, portia ball this weekend and concert practices coming up. I'm really not healthy at the moment. I fear, sometimes hope, that my body suddenly just shuts down as I'm driving on the way home.. but anyway, there.
exhausted, but not enough rest in sight. My mind, heart and body are all screaming for me to lie down, take a break for a few days with no worries, my phone off, just relax and getaway. Then again, life is running by, and I've already fallen off way too many times.
So here we go again, I know I'm better than this, in most aspects.
Focus. right?
I could sure use some moral support, instead of the constant nagging and pressure i get from my mom. then again, I work best when my back's against the wall (or should I say I only get things done when my back is against the wall).
I miss alot of people and places right now. I miss my ex who despite all my crap was always there by my side. I miss my blockmates from law, I miss my friends from philo, I miss the girls (must be just me, but something just feels different right now), I miss (nevermind let's not even go there.).. I can go on and on, but I'll stop here.
yeah, it's a pretty empty feeling right now, worse that i physically feel like crap. not much to keep my head up for. Then again, it's times like these tat make the good times even sweeter.
inhale.
relax.
put on some jazz.
calm blue ocean.
haha, good vibrations on the mp3 player.
definitely need some good vibes right now.
posted by blurred at 1:50 PM
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