the cross I bear/bore...
a few days ago, I confronted a man with enough rage to kill him, or at the very least do enought damage to send him to the emergency room. Lucky for him it was at a retreat, he was asleep and his girl saved his ass.
a bit of history for those who don't know, this guy has been on my nerves for the longest time. he held out the olive branch once, but threw alot of crap my way when my back was turned. I simply ignored it, and walked away for the most part. a few weeks ago, I even left a meeting because he pissed me of so much I knew it was trouble.
Last friday though, it wasn't anything big, just another one of his infinitely tactless comments, he didnt even have the guts to say it to my face, as usual, another snyde remark shot at the side...
maybe I was prodded, but as I talked about this with noelle, lalabas at lalabas din yan, and it did. Definitely bad timing and not the right place, and my deepest and most sincere apologies to those concerened.
that night passed with minimal incident considering what could have happened. just a shouting match between me and a phantom from my past. a phantom that no longer frightens me, but a phantom nonetheless. I went home that night out of respect, kowing that I could no longer serve and that my presence there would no longer do any good.
I'd like to think I've cleared the rage from my soul. I still don't like the guy, and if push does come to shove, I ought to be ready to fight. I dunno, but if it does come to it, obviously I am very much capable, abit more finesse, patience and efficiency, but I'm very sure I'm capable if he drives me to it, this definitely makes me feel much better at night. as much as I hate violence, this is definitely an exception.
for the mean time however, he again put forward the olive branch. I'm not even accepting it, as they say, beware of greeks bearing gifts. He's done this before, and as nice a guy as I am, I am willing to wait and see, but he is on an extremely short leash. I don't think it would take much for me to pull the trigger. literally. so there.
now I walk, talk and sleep easier knowing all this.
but before anyone get's me wrong here let me just get things straight. I've walked away quite enough times, and I still think that avoiding something like that is probably always the best course of action. Sometimes however you just have to take things into your own hands. now I'm very sure if it comes down to it, I will not freeze at the trigger. mwehehehehehe.
ok, deep breaths.... relax... inhale..
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on another front, i may have 21 units to go this sem, but it's sure. I can graduate this sem. yeah!
1 last push to the line.. time to sprint and pull away.
a bit of history for those who don't know, this guy has been on my nerves for the longest time. he held out the olive branch once, but threw alot of crap my way when my back was turned. I simply ignored it, and walked away for the most part. a few weeks ago, I even left a meeting because he pissed me of so much I knew it was trouble.
Last friday though, it wasn't anything big, just another one of his infinitely tactless comments, he didnt even have the guts to say it to my face, as usual, another snyde remark shot at the side...
maybe I was prodded, but as I talked about this with noelle, lalabas at lalabas din yan, and it did. Definitely bad timing and not the right place, and my deepest and most sincere apologies to those concerened.
that night passed with minimal incident considering what could have happened. just a shouting match between me and a phantom from my past. a phantom that no longer frightens me, but a phantom nonetheless. I went home that night out of respect, kowing that I could no longer serve and that my presence there would no longer do any good.
I'd like to think I've cleared the rage from my soul. I still don't like the guy, and if push does come to shove, I ought to be ready to fight. I dunno, but if it does come to it, obviously I am very much capable, abit more finesse, patience and efficiency, but I'm very sure I'm capable if he drives me to it, this definitely makes me feel much better at night. as much as I hate violence, this is definitely an exception.
for the mean time however, he again put forward the olive branch. I'm not even accepting it, as they say, beware of greeks bearing gifts. He's done this before, and as nice a guy as I am, I am willing to wait and see, but he is on an extremely short leash. I don't think it would take much for me to pull the trigger. literally. so there.
now I walk, talk and sleep easier knowing all this.
but before anyone get's me wrong here let me just get things straight. I've walked away quite enough times, and I still think that avoiding something like that is probably always the best course of action. Sometimes however you just have to take things into your own hands. now I'm very sure if it comes down to it, I will not freeze at the trigger. mwehehehehehe.
ok, deep breaths.... relax... inhale..
_____________________________
on another front, i may have 21 units to go this sem, but it's sure. I can graduate this sem. yeah!
1 last push to the line.. time to sprint and pull away.
posted by blurred at 7:41 PM
3 Comments:
Promises... promises...
If you had every intention of doing something, sana ginising mo.
Don't make promises you can't keep. Pag sinabi, gawin mo. You end up looking like a fool by putting it all down for everyone to see but not having the nerve or guts to pull it off when push comes to shove.
If you must kick ass, kick hard and take no shit. Otherwise, bite your tongue.
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*forgive others as Christ has forgiven you.
*kick ass when you need to, kahit si Christ nagalit din.
but then again, i've told you before...this kind of thing isn't worth it. and for once, straighten out your life. if you are really pissed about it, TALK to that person. no use writing about it if you don't have the balls to face whom you're writing about.
running away is stupid. i never believed in it. and i don't think that's the best thing to do at all. when faced with an opponent, meet them head on.only a coward runs away and inasmuch as i know that to a certain degree, you are one...
for crying out loud, if you want to beat the living daylights out of someone, just do it. no use whining about it.
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